Finally, I have returned to the Blogger.

I have been a busy camper, leaving out my dreams and learning about me. Recently, I cover the AMEN celebration and met alot of powerful and influential people. It was a celebration of a new program that is in the North Lawndale area concerning tutoring the youths and mentoring them. Ricky Hendon was in attendence as he talk about the history he had with Mr. Lashion (whose last name I cannot remember now and founder of AMEN). The story turned a little nasty when he accused Alderman Walter Burnett of not holding up his end of the bargain with financial aspect. After I talk with Lashion for a while, he told me that he never spoke to the alderman directly, but to his assistant. A receptionist of the Alderman said no one can speak for Mr. Burnett, but Mr, Burnett. I agreed. I guess Lashion should meat with the Alderman next time.

Been watching the bulls games as of late as well. It looks like the Bulls come and go. They have an energy that is passionate and hot for the game, then somewhere it cuts off and looks tired and lackluster. Kobe chants have filled (and sometime echoed) the arena as the loyal Chicagoans looks to a savior to relive those past Jordan days when we were on top of the world looking down at every team. Today, they look up with hope that the Bulls who swept Miami and pushed Detroit can return and stick around for a while. Until then, that Kobe guy in L.A looks very tempting.

As many of my friends know, I am a huge wrestling fan. I watched WWE Raw 15th Anniversary special this Monday night and was so impressed. Not with the action, or the storyline, but seeing those guys that I used to watch every Monday night. I started watching wrestling 15 years ago when an arrogant jerk named Shawn Michaels came beat some guy in a silly costume (later to be revealed as the Konnan of TNA, AAA and WCW fame ). And 15 years later, I am still watching, even though the reason change. Then, I had emotional investment in the wrestling, where now I watch it from a writer's perspective trying to figure out why they go in that direction and figuring out what I would of done different. It perplexes my mind.

I been reading the I Am Legend book and hoping that the movie is just as good as the book. It is a bad thing to do, but once I'm interested, I have to go full stream and learn more about the situation or story. I love stories and so I read it. Will Smith is my favorite actor so I'm sure it be good. I AM LEGEND hits theaters this Friday.

I was a program director for the last four months. Since then, my budding writing career was put on hold. It was a stressful and learning process. I wrote a letter that said:

I am sorry to write you this, but I have been thinking about this for a long while. I have talk to my family and friends about this and I have decided that it is in the best interest of me, and hopefully St. Joseph Services, that I resign from my position as the Program Coordinator.

Personally, I miss my family life that the hours I labor now make hard to find time. I miss my church life that I have come rather disengaged from. My buoyancy has been severely damage by not feeling that I am adequate in something that I done before time over and time again and seen it work. Emotionally, I am sapped and exhausted. Physically, I am hurting, sick and stressed out. None of this is what I was once.

I want to finish out the semester. But after that, I will leave. Semester end either the 15th or the 22nd of December. I would be interested in volunteering on weekends and working with the children with homework and/or continuing WWX session. A few young men from the church (including myself) will also not mind still volunteering with the basketball program on Sundays as well. Yet the administration and organization of the programs I think should be left up to someone else.

I want to thank you all who have given this young man from the West Side of Chicago an opportunity. Maybe, I am not where I need to be now and maybe I can watch the next person who comes so that I may improve and be better than what I am. Maybe I will be back as the Program Coordinator or Assistant Program Coordinator one day (lol). But today, I go back to drawing board and develop and mend myself.

Beautiful. I still volunteer, but there are some other things I need to accomplish like my writing career. If they can both co exist, I do both in a heartbeat, but here at this time, they did not. I rambled long enough. Until next time. BMJ 3 has returned. Yeah.